I am Aryan !
From India..
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 | My Bio ! In Short !!! | Jul 7, 2011 |
Arjun Krishnan is the name I was given…(Aryan is my pet name) nothing more, nothing less. I was born and raised in the Indian Valley(Hyderabad), I hate its heat but I love its winter :) I am an ordinary g with many aspirations. What I love the most about life is being able to create and own my own memories. I believe in the phrase “peace not war” even though I understand we wouldn’t know what peace is without war. I guess I can say that that is probably the reason why I am a very respectful and tolerant person, but like most people, I have my limitations. I cannot say I am the greenest person out there, but I do try to GO GREEN, after all it doesn't hurt :) Okay now let’s get to the good stuff… I am young so I like to have fun, go out, Dance, Laugh, but most of all LIVE!! I love exploring what the world has out there for us, whether it is up in the high mountains, through the cities crowded streets, down on the beach, or in the most rural areas of the word, I want to SEE it all. Sounds like fun right? HAHA… if it doesn't its okay I'm not going to hate on you... just don't talk to me! lol JK :D :P Real gain is only possible when you love the other person more than you love yourself. As I stared into your eyes, you asked me why I was about to cry, it was because I knew you were about to say goodbye. Let me love you from this day on, till the walls of forever come crashing down around us, and even after that. It's so hard to explain everything that I'm feeling; face to face,
I just seem to go dry. But I love you so much that the sound of your voice can get me high. Thanks for taking me on a one way trip to the sun...and thanks for turning me into a someone.  I don't care what anyone else says. We may not live near each other,
but our love has helped us through so much it is stupid to think it won't last. Just because we happen to be apart most of the year doesn't mean we can't love each other.
You mean so much to me and I wouldn't dream of wanting it any other way. I love you, and you love me-at least, you say so, and act as if you do, which is a great consolation in all events. But I more than love you, and cannot cease to love you.
I like to feel her eyes on me when I look away.
If you love someone more than anything, then distance only matters to the mind, not to the heart. I remember the tears rolling down my cheeks and I remember you wiping them away,
I remember you telling me you were going to miss and that you love me. I remember the look in your eyes and I remember I could hardly walk away...it took all the strength not to look back but I did anyway...
big mistake...the tears fell endlessly for the next three days,
I called to let my family know that I was okay.
I remember she put you on the phone and I remember I started to cry...
I remember saying I had to go but I don't remember why...I remember when you said goodbye, I remember the tears that fell...but I'm thinking I remember this a little too well.
It is okay to part with thoughts of love, but it is not all right to forget the lessons that they have taught you about yourself. For if you forget the lessons they have taught you, you are forgetting them in their entirety. When I find the true person that sees what I am, all heart from head to toe, then I know that girl is for me. If you have someone who loves you, don't pass it up, give it a chance.  Because you may never have someone love you like that again. What do you have to lose? Nothing! I know that I love you not because you're the first thing I think of when I wake up, or because you're the last thing I think of when I go to sleep. But because even in my dreams I see your face. If I can stop one heart from breaking. I shall not live in vain.
Happiness is looking into the eyes of someone you love and realizing that the look in their eyes is the same one you have in yours. I just want to cry so much these days because I miss you. The pain of you not here is unbearable. You call everyday and constantly tell me you love me and I start crying...only because I wish so much for you to be here by my side. I don't care what anyone else says. We may not live near each other, but our love has helped us through so much it is stupid to think it won't last. Just because we happen to be apart most of the year doesn't mean we can't love each other. You mean so much to me and I wouldn't dream of wanting it any other way. You know you can call me day or night, and even if you wake me up to tell me something you think is dumb, I really do care...and hearing your voice is the best way to wake up. Sometimes I wonder who she sees when she looks at me and smiles. If I had only one friend left, I'd want it to be you. Someone who understands me and knows me inside out. Helps keep me together, believes without a doubt. If I had only one friend left, I'd want it to be you. I'm told by my friends that I'm loved, that I make a difference in their lives and that they actually care. I believe every word they say put all my faith &trust in them, &love them as much as my heart can give plus more. I'd die for them if it came down to it. But it's weird, because I've done stupid things &tried to do some that were even stupider. I guess when the going gets tough &there's a little confusion between some friends I feel I'm alone, &that's when I do stupid things. My friends know what I'm talking about, because they're the ones that pull me out of these situations time &time again. I just want to say thank you, because as a matter of fact, they may not know it, but, well...once or twice they've saved my life. Yeah that's what I mean by being stupid. They all say I'd never, but I would. It just seems that friends are so important in my life. If I lost one, or I got in a fight with one, or we just stopped talking I'd do some more stupid things. I need my friends, they're essential in my life, &I'm so glad I have friends that mean so much to me. Thank you for being a part of my life, thank you for helping me, thank you for putting up with my problems, thank you for drying my endless stream of tears, thank you for giving me hugs, thank you for talking to me when I'm alone, thank you for being the best friends a person could ever have, &thank you for everything you've ever done. It's not repayable, I could never make-up for it all, but I just want you to know, I love you all, want to be your friend forever, &will do absolutely anything for you, because you are so worth it plus more! Thanks you again, because you are the best friends, I've ever had &for once in my life I feel like a somebody, rather than a nobody. As friends we make a commitment, I worry about you, and you worry about me, it's a contract, we help one another. Somehow I knew we would be friends. We'd have our fights, our ups and downs...but when the big things came along, we could work anything out. We'd fight over guys...then laugh it off, cause we learned it wasn't worth it. We knew that our friendship would make it through anything. It feels like we've been friends forever, even though it's only been a short time. But no matter what, you've always been there when I needed you the most, and I love you to death for it. I feel like I am sitting in a room full of people that I love, and you know what, they just don't care that I love them. They don't care whether or not I live or die. To them I'm just another guy, just another stranger. To me, they are my best friends, the only people I have left. Love anything and your heart will be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact you must give it to no one, not even an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements. Lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket--safe, dark, motionless, airless--it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, and irredeemable. To love is to be vulnerable. I don't know where she is, if she's thinking of me, if she's missing me, I don't know if she's going to see me or if she's already tried, I don't know what she's doing or if she cares, I don't know if she realizes there's a guy right here longing for her love and touch and misses her so much Girls like a challenge. Especially when it comes to guy. They love the chase. They find the guy that is so out of their reach that they know there is no possible way that they will have him, yet they still try. Many times, they're like hamsters on a hamster wheel, going around and around trying to reach something...when there's never actually anything there for them to reach. It's really sad though. They play love like it's just a game of cat and mouse, when love should never be a game. What I don't understand is why those girls never go for the guy that is already there. That guy that sticks beside them and tells them to go for it, when deep down they are crying inside because they love that boy with every part of their existence. And so often that guy gets up the nerve to tell the girl how he feels...only to get a 'that's sweet' or a 'wow, you're making me blush'. Now you may think this guy is fool...but truthfully he has more balls than that girl that just broke his heart. And though he's dying inside, he stays beside her, trying his hardest to make her happy. And that girl just brushes off those words like they were nothing and tries to find another challenge. But you know if I were that guy, I'd challenge her. I'd challenge her to open her eyes and heart and stop acting like an ass and try to see that I did really love her. And that if she kept acting the way she did... I'd challenge her to stop me from walking out of her life. But if that guy really loved her, if I really loved someone that much, I could never say that...Too much doubt in thinking that she might not try to stop me. I was never good at hiding the way I felt inside. And I'm not the type of person to contradict my emotions. So saying that I need you...that I care...that I love you, Wasn't me trying to please you. It was me putting everything out there for you to have or to throw away. And seeing as you never spoke back. I'll swallow the emptiness in my chest and walk away. You're everything I've wanted. You're beautiful. You're reckless. And a little sad. You know it's the sadness that got me right from the start. I wanted to make it go away, and for a time I thought I had. It's pretty stupid, huh? You like the sadness. You cling to it, and in the end it will be all you have. Honestly, I'm crazy about her. But that doesn't make me stupid. Ive been hurt enough times to learn my lesson. Its not like she's the only girl who looks at me.. Well she's not the right one to blame anyways...
It's indeed my mistake to let her go... O miss her badly..
And why would I waste my time on someone who doesn't appreciate me, when you and I both know I could do so much better? But i don't want to, i don't need to and i don't feel to :)
She knows where to find me if she wants, but my world's not going to stop and wait for her. And if she does come back, who to say I'll even be here when she does.. I know will cannot come back :( It's life.. Death Exist .. And i accept it !
Stop. Just stop talking. As much as I love hearing your voice and can never get enough of it, all I want you to do right now is hear me.. here my soul.. hear my feelings, my thoughts my sorrow is dried away... Do something Love <3 We have a special relationship where you know me better than anyone else ever has and even better than I know myself My hands feel empty- no one to hold I hate the way you can push me to my limits with the things you do...And then you know just the right time to say something sweet to make me fall in love all over again. And I forget every little reason I was mad As I lie here in the midst of the night, I wonder if you're thinking about me. Maybe you've already fallen asleep there in Heaven, or I'm there in your dreams. But I know one thing for sure, I'm always thinking about you, and when I'm asleep, you're always in my dreams Did you ever notice how you can be sitting in the middle of doing something one day and all of a sudden you will remember the beginning? Like the first time we held hands or the first song we sang in the car together? Maybe the first time we went to the movies or danced? Maybe something smaller like a joke that we laughed at for what seemed like hours or a day we spent shopping... or a fast food restaurant we ate at? Sometimes I'll be sitting in the middle of doing something and I'll remember... and it makes me think Look how far we have come Look how long it has been...look how happy we made each other from day one." And that is something so sentimental that it brings tears to my eyes You know what I want? I want to be someone's reason for waking up, someone's reason for going through another day. Just once, I want to be the one being wished for, I want a guy to say to himself, "I'm so lucky to have her" To put it simply, I want to be someone's everything And then I did the simplest thing in the world. I leaned down and kissed her hands :). And the world cracked open* *When she kisses you, she isn't doing anything else. You're her whole universe and the moment is eternal because she doesn't have any plans and isn't going anywhere, just kissing you, and it's overwhelming*... She was and is my everything till i breath last !
* Love said, 'Lie still and think of me,' Sleep said, 'Close your eyes till break of day'.
But Dreams came by, and smilingly gave both to love and sleep their way* Ive gone through this before... And that's why I don't get why this is so hard for me to deal with... its the simple fact that she just doesn't want me like I want her, Cause she was aware that she's going to leave me, she's going to leave this world... I guess, maybe, its so hard because for a while there... She made me feel like she did... maybe that's the difference Its one thing for people to cause you pain, But when we feel this with heart.. It's called love ! like the knife to the heart kind of feeling... But its another when they actually start having fun with it, you know, twisting the knife all around... I mean, seriously, how insensitive can some people be? I am so scared ... scared that I wont ever love anyone like this, that I wont ever find someone who can make me feel so complete yet at the same time be the one who's leaving me feeling lifeless... And you'll never know how it feels to have the one person who means everything to you - And leaves you alone :(  I cant stop crying... I don't understand, and its not the loud, screaming crying... Its just the tears continuously roll down my face, and I can't do anything to stop them I thought by meeting this new peoples, talking to my friends on the phone all night..
it would make me stop wanting you but it's certainly not possible. That wasn't the case at all, instead, when I talk to anyonw, or when I look at someone... all I wanted in the whole world was for it to be you Its this continuous cycle of me falling over and over again... But she always catches me just before I hit the ground... Then takes me to the top, let's me go... and I fall all over again. And you'd think, just once Id say... "You know, maybe I don't feel like going back up there with you", but instead I do the opposite and practically let her blindfold me and take me herself... with no control of my own, I give her everything... and for some reason expect to be okay afterwards...........
O what shall i say now !! No words !! i am tired now :)
Love you all guys xxx
   Sorry Folks !
Things Keeping Me Damn Busy Now a Days :(
Ain't Finding Enough Time !!
Today I thought of penning down something real.. I always talks about real things though !
As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will.
You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by.
So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances.
You just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts.
Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back...
Life is Very Sensitive.. Life is Very Costly..
Once Lost, You'll Never get it back...
Don't fool your self.. Be Certain..
Thing May Turn Nasty Sometimes, Or Things May Hurt You, Crush You Or Even May Divert You...
I know Life is not the meaning of loneliness..
No person would enjoy the treasure of life without been with several people associated with.
Some are very dear..
Some are More than Life..
And So On..
Pleasant Life.. On Life. On Vision. One Opportunity.
Dream It
Achieve It
Live It
Cherish It
Rock Your Moments With Your Beloved Ones.
Remember The Sayings By Aryan Arjun Krishnan Always : The More You Expect, The Deep You Hurt !
Hurt Is The Consent Chain Fixed With Expectation..
You Rather Don't Expect While Loving..
Either Try To Shower Your Blessing,
Love,
Care
Respect
Without Hoping And Wishing Anything In Return.
If You Expect.. It Directly Indicates That You Ain't Loving Your Beloved, In fact You Are Wanting Something From Them.. In The Name Of Love Which You being Passing Immensely.
Thy Shall Never Let Things In Heart, Thy Shall Never Curse When Hurt, Thy Shall Never Expect, Thy Shall Never Love with Hopes..
Expectations Hurts
Hope Kills...
Love Definition : Love Until You Breath Last..
Purely, Totally And Without Wanting Something In Return.
Any Queries : Shall revert Back To Me Anytime.
With Love And Warm Regards :
Aryan Arjun Krishnan !!
 My Love Life !My Life Has  This is My Love Life, And I wanted to share this with you all past many days...I miss her dammit ! i want her back.......:( :( :( Year 2007 :
As I sat in the cafe coffee day, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After our coffee session, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Year 2008 :
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Romantic movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Senior Month :
The day before our outing she walked to me. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and few years back, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Birth Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was her Birthday. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to cut the cake. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
A Few Months Later :
 Now I sit in the every nook and corner. That girl is going to get married now. I watched her Crying and Struggling To convince her dad.. But Nothing Happening. She has got no clue expect marrying to another man.
I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Funeral :( :(
Months passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in the Year 2008. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried.
 I missed My life..
I missed her.
I don't say i am alone.. But i am not complete without her !
Do i need to express in words? how much i love her !!
Girl i love, Loved You and Will Always Love you love you and love you.
You wanted me to accept all those things which i hated... See i am love them.
You wanted me to love rain?
You wanted me to walk in the rain?
You wanted me to write and make this as a passion..
You wanted me to be cordial and Jovial with every other person passing by and talking to me..
You wanted me to share Our friendship with every body, See i am sharing our unsaid and unexpressed and Painful Love..
Please Come Back. Your absence is killing me inside out... I don't say my life sucks !
My life was, and is you.. So it will always Rocks !!
But I don't know where did my life vanished/?
I am looking out for you almost every where..
I need you.. badly, totally and Heartly !!
Pretending that feelings aren't there doesn't make them go away. 
You walk down your packed hallways everyday. You pass hundreds of people you have never talked to, ex best friends . You pass the people that hate you & most importantly love you to death. If you could just freeze everyone & finally slow down time to look around. Do you finally notice the kids that have never had an equal chance? What about the beautiful popular girls that get all the boys, are they truly happy or is it all an act? And then look at yourself. Are you happy with who you are becoming or The College turned you into someone you promised you would never be? Take a good look at your reflection before you judge anyone else; be the person you want to. Fuck what everyone else tells you, just be who you are.
Well, I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did. And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did and I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did. and you didn't mean to hurt me, but you did.
Still building up the courage to tell you how I feel. Yet, I don't think it will matter. It never does.
Maybe it's the only way we can finally stand on our own.
You know, to hurt each other so much that we have no choice.
Life is unfair. You put someone first who puts you second. You study your ass off for a final only to get a B in the class when you deserved an A. You give 110% to someone in a relationship when they only give 40%. You’re there for your best friend at 3 a.m. when they need it the most & the next day they don’t pick up their phone. You give something your all & sometimes get little to nothing back. You care so much about someone who doesn’t care enough about you to say hi once in a while. You give someone your time & they give you “sorry, I’m busy”. It seems like you’re giving everyone everything & they’re just walking away with it.
just when you least expect it, you start to think about how she made you laugh, how you feel when you're around her; & then you realize that after all this time, you cared about her more than you thought you did.
One half of knowing what you want is knowing what you have to give up before you get it.
I'm not the type of Guy who will fall for a girl he barely knows. Who will listen to a love song and see her face. Who will look for that girl wherever he goes. I'm the type of guy who doesn't get over things easily. Who will beat himself up when someone doesn't love Him back. Who will cry himself to sleep cause he feels he's not good enough. But I'm also the type of guy who's strong. Who can cry his eyes out, then forbid them to come back the next morning. Who will blast some old pop and sing at the top of his lungs because he feels like it. Who will be no one but himself.
All I want is for you to know me again. For me to be in your life and even if it can't happen right now, I would just like to know that you hear my plea. I would just like to know that I'm not blocked from your memory.
Here's to being lied to, to being walked on, used, promised something and fed bullshit. Here's to getting your hopes up and watching them fall time after time after time. Here's to trusting over and over again because you really wanted to believe that she's changed. Now take this as a lesson learned. Let her go and move the fuck on with your life.
I'm so sick of the same shit happening. I meet a sweet and kind girland i think the same thing every single time, that she's different from the Rest. That she won't screw me over and fall for someone else. But yes they are all the same except this time you were different...They were worse. And You Are The Patron Of Love. Seventeen reasons why i love you
I hope you know that you were once the most important person in my life for a very long time. You were the girl I thought about while listening to all those songs, the one girl who made me actually look forward to waking up in the morning, you were the girlwho could make or break me, who had my heart, butnever bothered to do anything about it.
I still Miss My Love Forever ''Seira Khan''. I miss that feeling when you go to sleep at night and when you wake up in the morning. Its the feeling that everything is all right in the world. You know that amazing feeling that you're a whole, that you've got everything you want, that you aren't missing anything. Sometimes when I wake up I get it for just a moment... It lasts for a few seconds but then I remember what happened, how nothing has been the same since. But now when you left me alone here with all fucking dirly people's around. who are mean, who are selfish, who are hopeless, who are just devilish ! I Still give a fuck to them, you're memories are enough to survive. Though i am in love Yet Again ! i am having a merry time with You Miz.. mwah
My Second Girl Friend : Rashmita Samal I: Don't walk away…
She: And why not? I learned how to from you.
I'll screw up. I'll push you away if we're getting too close. I won't trust you until you've proven yourself. I get hurt easily and take a lot of things personally. But I'll love you with everything I have, and if that isn't enough, then I'm not enough. She din't even bothered to hear me, She is a real bitch.. Fuck You Bitch !
Now In Anyways My Life Rock's. I don't want to make one or two reason's to make my life happening. I Opened my eyes, and saw the world with my heart. Believe me, Life is So Charming. Life is not just one girl, or girlfriend's, or songs, or blogging or some other fuck. Life is just Life Life is a Mansion, and i am the Guest ! Wanna Explore This Wonderful Mansion with My Love, and the other people surving with me as ''Stranger's'' Yet My Living Mate's ! I have Finally Understood The Real Way Of Living and Enjoying Life.. No Body had the power To Destroy me ! See How Lucky I am ! Cause You All Honored Me Like Heaven ! Thank's All :)  
Thanks Aryan <3 i love you seriously :) I was so crazy, All the time i made you cry ! :D
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Ok, before I pick that though up again I feel it may be necessary to let you know that I don't plan on dying any time soon. But this is something out of my control and I'd rather tell you about it while I still can. Because once I'm dead, well, there won't be much talking or blogging on my part anymore... I don't think. So, when I die, I'd hate for people to cry that I'm gone. Seriously, I'm not that important. Just one of over 6 billion people on this planet. People die every day for the most various reasons. I will be one of them, sometime, it's a fact. I don't know when I will die or what may be the cause of my death but it will happen and there's nothing I can do about it. Once I'm dead, I don't much care what happens to my body either, just one thing, don't put me in a grave and feel obligated to take care of it and bring flowers and stuff. Seriously, remember me as the living person I once was, with all my faults. I would much rather that my ashes are spread over the ocean, now that would be cool. Or if you'd like to put my ashes in an urn that is mailed from friend to friend, that's fine with me, too. Quite honestly, I really liked how the main character of The Perfume ended up, although this may be a little dramatic and unrealistic. If you haven't seen the movie or read the book (both are excellent), I dare you to do it. I would like you to know that when I die, I will have lived the best life I was able to live. I will have had many ups and downs in my life but I will never have given up. Giving up is not in my nature. I may lay on the ground and wallow in self-pity for a while, but that's only because I need a new game plan. I will have always stood true to my values and beliefs.
When I die, I know I will have disappointed many of you. Trust me, I didn't do it on purpose; at some point our lives just separated and continued on in different directions. I'm following my path and you have to follow yours. Rest assured, I enjoyed the time we spent together. Sometimes I mourn the loss of friends in my life but at the same time I know that we weren't able to continue down the same road. We walked down the same road for a while, made some experiences together and I cherish what I learned from them.Well, I tried my best and I hope to have made a difference. I can only take so much trouble before I have to move on. I can honestly say that everyone I have met so far during my lifetime has had an impact on me. You have shaped and influenced my life far more than you might imagine. You may just have brushed my life but you may have said or done something that will always stay with me and influence my life. I strive on those memories, good and bad, as they are all valuable to me. They deeply influence how I have lived my life so far.
I just hope that this life will have been good enough to get me another life, maybe one in which my body doesn't hate me so much but I know it will still be filled with challenges. The challenges will be different, I'm sure but I'm looking forward to it. I doubt I will be able to tell you about it but if I am, I hope it will be something like: "Remember during our last life, when...?" Now that would be fun! Therefore, when I die, don't be sad, remember me as I was when I was alive and say "See you in the next life!"
Love You All :) :) :) 
For all the most important things, the timing always sucks. Waiting for a good time to quit your job? The stars will never align and the traffic lights of life will never all be green at the same time.  
The universe doesn’t conspire against you, but it doesn’t go out of its way to line up all the pins either. Conditions are never perfect. “Someday” is a disease that will take your dreams to the grave with you. Pro and con lists are just as bad. If it’s important to you and you want to do it “eventually,” just do it and correct course along the way. Your incredibly loud and obnoxious alarm clock rings, at a time when your exhausted body says, “What? Already?” You beat the clock senseless until it stops beeping, grudgingly get up and shuffle to the restroom. You look in the mirror, eyes weary, oh-so-tired, and you think to yourself, “God. What the hell.I hate this.” You finish getting ready and head outside to endure a long, stressful, and completely unnecessary jam-packed commute. You realize, you’re commuting to a place you do not want to go to. To a job you no longer enjoy or find satisfaction and meaning in. And then you realize … your life has no satisfaction and meaning. You feel no joy. You feel … nothing. Crap. Now what?  If this describes your day-to-day life, the feeling you have within you, a sinking realization that you’re doing something so completely against your nature, against your dreams, against your life calling, then you need to do something about it. Now. It’s now or never. Now. Or never. Never Live a Life With Regrets There are worries and fears and barriers, of course. Internally and externally. Doing something that goes against the vast majority of society will always bring about heartache and trouble. But if you can get through this, you will never, ever live a life with regrets. There comes a time in one’s life, when everything changes. When your life will never be the same. That time came for me on the night of Friday, September 17, 2007, when I endured the worst night of my life. 
Everything I’ve ever experienced, from the time I was left by my girlfriend for 4 years of my life now, living a hard life, which is still a big tough thing for me to handle, manage and step further, thereby giving up any notion of a “normal” teenage existence, complete with Prom or movies or sleepovers, to trying my very hardest to be the hardworking, obedient-to-elders, smart and intelligent role model for all my younger cousins and sibling … all this has shaped me to be the person I am today.
I am a fierce survivor, with an intense independent spirit that will never bow down to others, ever again. Not even my own flesh and blood.
For this is the time, when it all comes crashing down upon you, that you realize you can die at any moment. Do you want to pass from this earth, filled with broken dreams never fulfilled, visions that never came true because you decided to put it off yet another day, yet another year? Tomorrow is never a promise made to us. Next week is no guarantee. So the chances are, your answer is no. If the answer is no, what are you doing about it? You think it’s financial reasons that hold you back? No. It is you that holds you back.
You think it’s familial obligations and responsibilities that hold you back? No. It is you that holds you back.
You think it’s your job, your commitment to the education/company/organization you study/work for that holds you back?
No. It is you that holds you back.
You think it’s time that holds you back, that you seemingly just never can “find the time”? No. It is you that holds you back. Realize that if you can never “find the time,” time will never find you. It Is Now. Or Never. I urge you. Do not live a life with regrets. Do not. You will only forsake your own abundant talents, gifts, dreams, and ambitions.
And for what? A little money? A promised promotion every 4 years so long as you do your due diligence? A frantic and frenzied country binge you try and pack into your ridiculously short vacation time just so you can say you have had “experiences”?
A T-shirt that say you went to the Taj Mahal? A meager 2% raise, hopefully, this year, pending how the company does at year end? Or maybe it’s because it’s your parents who expect you to graduate and get a nice-paying-nice-sounding job with a respectable company.
That means, they’ve raised a “good” daughter or son. One who confirms. Who doesn’t step outside the line. Who doesn’t cause trouble for anyone else, especially for the family. What’s deeply troubling is ignoring the searing pains of your broken heart, realizing that you are not living the life you’ve imagined.
So pick up those pieces you’ve shattered on the ground. Breathe. Start putting them back together, piece by piece.
People will come by and laugh at you. Saying all the while, “What’s the use? What for? You’re wasting your time. You’ll never succeed. You’ll fail. Who do you think you are?” Ignore them.
Even if it’s from the very people who are supposed to support you, supposed to understand you. They may not.
And so you must keep on putting those pieces together. No matter how long it takes, put yourself back together. And never look back.
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I think it's about time we start living up to our limits, our capabilities, our intelligence. Oh, I know what you're thinking now... here's this man who wants to discriminate against mentally challenged people, get them off the streets, out of our lives. You couldn't be farther from the truth since I believe even mentally challenged people have really bright spots sometimes, they're just not allowed to show them. My thoughts go into a different direction entirely. We can all have a "bad" day every once in a while, there's nothing wrong with it. It happens. But here's what I proclaim: Let's base our lives on our intelligence. From the moment you're being woken up in the morning, everything is based upon your intelligence for that day. Open your eyes, answer 3 questions. That'll already determine if you get to make your own coffee/tea/whatever or if it's safer for you to get coffee at Cafe Coffee Day or maybe you don't qualify for coffee at all. You want to take a shower? Well let's see how well you master the intelligence questions... Shower? Bath? All a matter of your intelligence. We've all seen mom in the minivan, screaming kids in the back, eating breakfast & talking on her cell phone at the same time. Do you think she should share the road with the business man, who's late for work, drinking his coffee while programming his Garmin or the girl on her way to class yapping away on her cell phone while applying her makeup? Put yourself in the mix and you're in for potential disaster. Who wants to share the road with stupid people? Exactly, nobody does! Why not base traffic solely on intelligence? Smart people get to leave for work/school first, stupid people last since it's unclear if they'll even make it there. Oh you have to go to some government agency? The GHMC, Social Security office, what have ya? Well, it won't just be "take a number please" anymore. Answer your intelligence questions and you'll be assigned a number and a row. We value your time. Another great place to apply the intelligence rule is, of course, the internet. Depending on your intelligence you have access to so much internet. There's no reason for stupid people to access websites they don't understand in the first place. Answer your intelligence questions and you'll have access to the www, the ww, or, as a friend of mine called it, the wwduh Life will be so much easier for all of us if we lived up to our capabilities and wouldn't have to feel ashamed when we have a "bad" day anymore. I am Always Clear With My Though And Plans. Ofcorse i Don't Plan and do Things. But If Something Worth' My Life Then I do Plan And Make The Most Of It ! You're Reviews On My Post Will Be Highly Appreciated ! Thanks ! :)  | I haven't written anything here in my journal for a good while now and it's about time I change that. I used to write often on so many things: personal life, family, random things here and there. I'm not sure if it is the advent of me using facebook that took away my time to write here or the fact that I've been saddled with a very busy schedule to compose the regular type of blog I post here.
I'll try to change that, as having this blog works for me as a way to take out some of the unsaid frustrations I have on so many things around me [unpaid debts (not mine, but of other people to me, forgetful people, family feud, work related stress, frustration with agents, good times with friends, corny jokes, etc], and this has somewhat been my sanctum for a long time. I'm not sure if I could maintain it the way I do before, but gee willickers, I'm going to try.
Here it is, midway June, a cool two months before I turn another page in the calendar and I can't sleep this afternoon. Not much has transpired. This is a day off, separate from the other one, meaning I have to report to work tonight. That's not a problem, except that I can't really sleep well [hence, me being online and writing at a time when I should be unconscious dreaming of whatever it is I last thought of before dozing off]. I was a god buddy for one of my cousin's Friend, had a great lunch there and then went to Char minar to buy a few things before trying [and failing miserably] to get some hot hot Haleem :p
But enough of this for now, I'll update this later with more stuff. I just hope that I won't be so drowsy come work time (as my mom will bang me ), I have a [just woke up] look everytime I'm at home. I agree too, I could probably get out of bed, put on some clothes and go out and probably look the same as I normally do with the preparations I do [taking a bath, etc]. | Jun 24, '11 7:08 AM
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